Tuesday, 4 December 2012
By Your Side part 2
So, my band (Enchanted Devilish Girls) was about to go on tour with Tokio Hotel. We were so excited. We had performed a lot during DSDS but this was our first tour. Plus we knew we would learn a lot from the guys, Bill, Tom, Georg and Gustav, as they were old pros.
Our first concert was in Berlin and we were well received. We were all on a high after such a great gig, and went for a few drinks after meeting a few fans. BIll pulled me aside. "So," he said, " we are officially a couple now."
"Yes," I said, " and it's great." Our fans had accepted us as a couple, after Bill had shouted it out at the DSDS final. He was so cute and adorable and I was so lucky to have him.
We all decided to head back to the guys tour bus for another drink. Although Markesha and I had our own bus, I ended up in Bill's bed and she in Tom's.
I was lying beside Bill and he was stroking my arm. "Bill, there is something I think I should tell,you, but I'm scared."
"Don't be scared," he said, " you can tell me anything and you know I won't get mad."
"No," I said, "but you're gonna be upset."
He took my face in his hands and turned it towards him. "Please just tell me," he begged.
"Ok, I would rather tell you myself than have you find out by accident. Especially if you're gonna see me naked sometime." At this, Bill blushed deep red and I giggled at him and this broke the ice.
"Ok," I said, "I kind of used to self harm by cutting when I was depressed. But I'm better now and haven't done it in over a year and I promise I never will again."
"Oh baby," he said as he pulled me towards him and wrapped his arms around me, "I'm so sorry you felt so bad and I promise you will never feel that bad again as long as you have me, cos I won't let you. I love you too much."
"I love you too Bill," and he covered my mouth with his and kissed me passionately. I know now that we would be even closer and even stronger as a couple now. I didn't know what I'd ever done to deserve such a wonderful guy in my life, but I was never gonna let him go.
Tuesday, 27 November 2012
My Angel (A Tokio Hotel fan story)
Note: the "me" in this is actually a friend of mine.
I first met Georg Listing at a mutual friend’s party. I was studying paralegal law and a friend from the course was big into music and knew Georg through the music business We seemed to get along straight away and ended up dancing. He wasn’t exactly the best dancer, a bit awkward but willing to give it a go. We had lots of fun and I thought he was kind of cute but with the buzz of the party and alcohol I didn’t read into things too much, though I did agree to swap numbers at the end of the night, not expecting to hear from him though.
The next morning (or should I say, afternoon) I dragged myself out of bed and straight to the kettle. Luckily it was a Friday so I had no classes. Sitting down with a cup of tea, I checked my phone and was surprised to find a message from Georg asking if I wanted to meet for coffee. I thought why not, so I replied and said I’d meet him at Starbucks at two.
I quickly got ready, throwing on jeans, a purple t shirt, black cardigan and just some blusher and lip gloss. When I arrived at Starbucks, I saw Georg was already sitting at a table with a coffee. He hadn’t spotted me yet, which was lucky as I had stopped and gasped. Without drink and in the daylight, I could see how breathtaking he actually was. With straight shoulder length brown hair and perfect features, he wore jeans, a black band t shirt and white sneakers.
He looked up then and smiled, and he was even more beautiful, as the smile reached his eyes and is whole face lit up. I waved, self consciously, and walked towards him and took a seat. He asked what I would like and insisted on getting and paying for it for me. We got to chatting then, and although I had butterflies in my stomach the whole time, we got on very well.
I told him all about my studies, and he in turn told me about his band, for which he played bass. He promised to get me a demo to listen to. I then told him about my favourite type of music, kpop, he didn’t know too much about it so I also promised to make him up a cd. He seemed genuinely interested in both my studies and taste in music. He was lovely, and I couldn’t believe he was interested in anything I had to say.
You see, I have always had to deal with depression and loneliness. I had been alone a long time now. I had low self confidence also. Yet here was this gorgeous, talented man taking an interest in me. It was awesome, but I was sure he just wanted to be friends. That was ok with me, although of course I would have loved more. He invited me to his gig the next night and I agreed to go.
So, the following night I dressed in a simple black dress, with some jewellery and make up. I arrived at The Sugar Club right on time and ordered a drink. I took a seat and a few minutes later, Georg’s band, Tokio Hotel, were announced. They were pretty good. Georg spotted me in the crowd and waved. I felt so honoured, knowing a member of the band. Afterwards he came to sit with me, introduced me to the rest of the band, and we had another dance!
We continued to meet up over the next few weeks, in coffee shops or each other’s apartments, and each time I met him I fell more deeply for him. I felt so lonely, as he was so near yet so far. I longed to tell him how I felt but I thought there was no point as he would never be interested in me in that way. And so I lived on in torture, from meeting to meeting.
One night I was at home studying for a test, when there was a knock on the door. I went to answer it and was surprised to see Georg standing there. He looked a bit upset. I invited him in and made him a drink, the sat down beside him and asked if everything was ok. He turned to me and said “I’m so lonely.”
“I know” I said, and next thing I knew we were kissing and my hands were running through his hair, and his hands were stroking my face. I couldn’t believe it. I was still sure he was just lonely and this didn’t mean anything, so I made the most of it.
Then he pulled away and said “I love you. I always have.” I nearly died but managed to stay calm and tell him that I loved him too. We kissed again, then he got down on one knee, holding my hand and asked if I would be his girlfriend. Of course I said a bit yes and we have been together ever since. It’s hard sometimes when he’s away with his band but we skype every day and we are going strong. I’ve never been so happy!
I first met Georg Listing at a mutual friend’s party. I was studying paralegal law and a friend from the course was big into music and knew Georg through the music business We seemed to get along straight away and ended up dancing. He wasn’t exactly the best dancer, a bit awkward but willing to give it a go. We had lots of fun and I thought he was kind of cute but with the buzz of the party and alcohol I didn’t read into things too much, though I did agree to swap numbers at the end of the night, not expecting to hear from him though.
The next morning (or should I say, afternoon) I dragged myself out of bed and straight to the kettle. Luckily it was a Friday so I had no classes. Sitting down with a cup of tea, I checked my phone and was surprised to find a message from Georg asking if I wanted to meet for coffee. I thought why not, so I replied and said I’d meet him at Starbucks at two.
I quickly got ready, throwing on jeans, a purple t shirt, black cardigan and just some blusher and lip gloss. When I arrived at Starbucks, I saw Georg was already sitting at a table with a coffee. He hadn’t spotted me yet, which was lucky as I had stopped and gasped. Without drink and in the daylight, I could see how breathtaking he actually was. With straight shoulder length brown hair and perfect features, he wore jeans, a black band t shirt and white sneakers.
He looked up then and smiled, and he was even more beautiful, as the smile reached his eyes and is whole face lit up. I waved, self consciously, and walked towards him and took a seat. He asked what I would like and insisted on getting and paying for it for me. We got to chatting then, and although I had butterflies in my stomach the whole time, we got on very well.
I told him all about my studies, and he in turn told me about his band, for which he played bass. He promised to get me a demo to listen to. I then told him about my favourite type of music, kpop, he didn’t know too much about it so I also promised to make him up a cd. He seemed genuinely interested in both my studies and taste in music. He was lovely, and I couldn’t believe he was interested in anything I had to say.
You see, I have always had to deal with depression and loneliness. I had been alone a long time now. I had low self confidence also. Yet here was this gorgeous, talented man taking an interest in me. It was awesome, but I was sure he just wanted to be friends. That was ok with me, although of course I would have loved more. He invited me to his gig the next night and I agreed to go.
So, the following night I dressed in a simple black dress, with some jewellery and make up. I arrived at The Sugar Club right on time and ordered a drink. I took a seat and a few minutes later, Georg’s band, Tokio Hotel, were announced. They were pretty good. Georg spotted me in the crowd and waved. I felt so honoured, knowing a member of the band. Afterwards he came to sit with me, introduced me to the rest of the band, and we had another dance!
We continued to meet up over the next few weeks, in coffee shops or each other’s apartments, and each time I met him I fell more deeply for him. I felt so lonely, as he was so near yet so far. I longed to tell him how I felt but I thought there was no point as he would never be interested in me in that way. And so I lived on in torture, from meeting to meeting.
One night I was at home studying for a test, when there was a knock on the door. I went to answer it and was surprised to see Georg standing there. He looked a bit upset. I invited him in and made him a drink, the sat down beside him and asked if everything was ok. He turned to me and said “I’m so lonely.”
“I know” I said, and next thing I knew we were kissing and my hands were running through his hair, and his hands were stroking my face. I couldn’t believe it. I was still sure he was just lonely and this didn’t mean anything, so I made the most of it.
Then he pulled away and said “I love you. I always have.” I nearly died but managed to stay calm and tell him that I loved him too. We kissed again, then he got down on one knee, holding my hand and asked if I would be his girlfriend. Of course I said a bit yes and we have been together ever since. It’s hard sometimes when he’s away with his band but we skype every day and we are going strong. I’ve never been so happy!
Monday, 26 November 2012
By Your Side (A Tokio Hotel fan story)
By Your Side
A black fog was starting to shroud my aching heart. I just couldn’t believe Bill had broken up with me. Everything was going so perfect, it was like a fairytale. Now it was all over and I didn’t even know why.
It all started when I auditioned for DSDS with my friend Markesha, as part of Enchanted Devilish Girls. We auditioned because we love music, but also mainly to meet Bill and Tom who were judges. Markesha loved Tom and I loved Bill, so we called each other sisters in law all the time.
So we arrived and finally it was out turn to go onstage and we shouted “we’re Enchanted Devilish Girls and we love Bill and Tom!”
The judges looked a bit taken aback, then they all started laughing and said “come down here and give Bill and Tom a hug”
So I ran down and threw my arms around a rather startled Bill and said “I love you!” I don’t know what Markesha said to Tom as all I could focus on was this gorgeous creature sitting before me.
However, we had to go back onstage and sing, so we sang an Evanescence song, dedicated to the twins of course, and we got through! We were beyond excited. We would get to see the twins again! Well we got through the next few rounds and made it to live shows. We were staying in a lovely luxurious hotel in Germany. I cherished each and every time I got to meet Bill. He was so kind and gentle, and I fell further in love each day.
The night after the first live show, and we made it through, I was back at my room messing around writing some lyrics, when there was a knock at the door. I opened it and it was Bill. My heart skipped a beat. “Come in” I said.
He came in but just stood there looking awkward.
I said “What is it?”
He continued to look awkward and was now looking from the ground to me and back. I thought I was going to explode if he didn’t speak soon. Eventually he blurted out “would you like to go to the cinema with me?”
Well what did he think I was going to say, “of course”.
He left and I jumped up and down shouting yes! The there was another knock at the door, so I opened it and there stood Tom. “Come in Tom” I said.
He came in and said “Bill sent me to find out what you really think of him. But I wasn’t to say he sent me.”
“I’m crazy about him” I replied.
“Good, Tom said, because he really likes you.”
YES! As soon as he left I called Markesha in the room next door and lo and behold, Tom had asked her out! So it looked like the four of us were going on a double date to the cinema.
You know, I can’t even remember what movie we saw, all I was aware of was the handsome hunk sitting next to me. Especially when he reached over and covered my hand with his, and then we both intertwined our fingers and held on to each other for the rest of the movie.
When we got back to the hotel that night, we decided the four of us to go to Tom’s room and raid the mini bar. The boys had whiskey and coke, Markesha had vodka and coke and I had Bacardi, and you guessed it, coke. Actually diet coke. Anyway, I forget what was spoken about, but Bill and I were gazing at each other and then we just started to kiss and our hands were roaming all over each other’s bodies as the kiss deepened, until Tom shouted out “get a room you two.”
We pulled away from each other and Bill was deep red. “get a life Tom,” I said, hitting him with a pillow.
Bill broke from his embarrassment and shouted “pillow fight!”
We four continued to date, and it was magical. We had to date in secret though, so it wouldn’t look as though the twins were praising us on the show because we were together. But that just made it more exciting, seeing each other in secret. Bill promised me a special date for the last night of the show when we could tell everyone.
Finally the special night arrived and it was down to Enchanted Devilish Girls and another band called Notebook. Our whole entourage was there, our best friends, Lena, our co-songwriter, Kayleigh, our stylist, Amy, our make up artist and Amanda our choreographer. They were all our old friends, we kept them on because we loved them.
So, the presenter, Marcus, called us out onstage and we waited and waited, and finally he said “the winners are…Enchanted Devilish Girls!”
Well we couldn’t believe it, we turned and hugged one another, Next thing I knew, Bill was there and gathering me up into his arms, screaming out “I’m in love with this girl Nikki!” I was shocked.
“Bill, I cried, you’re embarrassing me!” Bill looked at me for a minute and then we both burst out into laughter.
“I love her!” he shouted again.
“And I love him! I shouted. Then we noticed Markesha and Tom looking at us like we’d lost our minds.
Later that night, Bill pulled me aside and told me he had a special gift for me and I had to come with him. We arrived in a big arena and I still didn’t know what was happening. Next thing I knew, Evanescence came onstage and rocked the place. I couldn’t believe I was finally getting to see them. “I remembered from your first audition you said you loved them”, Bill whispered in my ear.
“Oh my god, I can’t believe you remembered” I whispered back.
That night Bill came back to my room and we raided the mini bar. “I knew you were a winner” he said to me. It was the first night we could really be together, not in secret. We lay in each other’s arms and talked about anything and everything late into the night. The next morning we woke up, still in each other’s arms.
“This is the best way to wake up ever” I told him and he agreed. He had a meeting so he left to get ready and I rang Markesha and told her I had spent the night talking with Bill. She told me that she had spent the night with Tom, only not talking…
Anyway, roll on two months and Bill has broken up with for no reason. I can’t believe it, I’m devastated and heartbroken. My girlfriends have all come over for a slumber party/pampering to cheer me up. In a way it kind of makes me feel worse though, as they all have boyfriends now, Markesha and Tom of course, Lena is with Zac Efron now, Kayleigh is with Ville Valo, Amy is with Gustav, Amanda is with Shane, and our new friend, Kitty who is Georg’s girlfriend is also with them. I know they mean well and I love them, but I can’t get over the aching in my lonely heart, where he should be.
We were just watching Dirty Dancing when She’s Like the Wind came on and I had to lock myself into the bathroom sobbing. I guess he was just “out of my league.” There was a knock on the door so I got myself together and went to answer it. There stood Bill. I looked at him and he looked back. Then he broke into the following speech:
“I’ve loved you since the first time I saw you on the Btk app. I couldn’t pluck up the courage to reply to you. I looked for you every day. When you turned up at the auditions I could barely breathe. When you said you loved me too, I nearly died. When we got together it scared the crap out of me. I’ve always been a hopeless romantic, and you could have destroyed me. I’m a total coward, because I got these tickets to New York for you to see all your favourite shows, but I kept them hidden because I was too scared to tell you. I pushed you away and I hate myself for it, because really, I love you, I love you so much it’s not even funny.”
By this stage we were both in tears and I flung my arms around him and he pulled me tight to him and then we kissed as though our lives depended on it. Next thing we heard cheering and clapping, and turned to find the girls all standing around cheering us on. One or two had tears in their eyes, you know who you are!
Well that is my story of auditioning for DSDS and falling in love with the best most romantic guy in the world. Enchanted Devilish Girls are currently rehearsing to go on tour with Tokio Hotel so I am sure there will be many more stories to tell!
A black fog was starting to shroud my aching heart. I just couldn’t believe Bill had broken up with me. Everything was going so perfect, it was like a fairytale. Now it was all over and I didn’t even know why.
It all started when I auditioned for DSDS with my friend Markesha, as part of Enchanted Devilish Girls. We auditioned because we love music, but also mainly to meet Bill and Tom who were judges. Markesha loved Tom and I loved Bill, so we called each other sisters in law all the time.
So we arrived and finally it was out turn to go onstage and we shouted “we’re Enchanted Devilish Girls and we love Bill and Tom!”
The judges looked a bit taken aback, then they all started laughing and said “come down here and give Bill and Tom a hug”
So I ran down and threw my arms around a rather startled Bill and said “I love you!” I don’t know what Markesha said to Tom as all I could focus on was this gorgeous creature sitting before me.
However, we had to go back onstage and sing, so we sang an Evanescence song, dedicated to the twins of course, and we got through! We were beyond excited. We would get to see the twins again! Well we got through the next few rounds and made it to live shows. We were staying in a lovely luxurious hotel in Germany. I cherished each and every time I got to meet Bill. He was so kind and gentle, and I fell further in love each day.
The night after the first live show, and we made it through, I was back at my room messing around writing some lyrics, when there was a knock at the door. I opened it and it was Bill. My heart skipped a beat. “Come in” I said.
He came in but just stood there looking awkward.
I said “What is it?”
He continued to look awkward and was now looking from the ground to me and back. I thought I was going to explode if he didn’t speak soon. Eventually he blurted out “would you like to go to the cinema with me?”
Well what did he think I was going to say, “of course”.
He left and I jumped up and down shouting yes! The there was another knock at the door, so I opened it and there stood Tom. “Come in Tom” I said.
He came in and said “Bill sent me to find out what you really think of him. But I wasn’t to say he sent me.”
“I’m crazy about him” I replied.
“Good, Tom said, because he really likes you.”
YES! As soon as he left I called Markesha in the room next door and lo and behold, Tom had asked her out! So it looked like the four of us were going on a double date to the cinema.
You know, I can’t even remember what movie we saw, all I was aware of was the handsome hunk sitting next to me. Especially when he reached over and covered my hand with his, and then we both intertwined our fingers and held on to each other for the rest of the movie.
When we got back to the hotel that night, we decided the four of us to go to Tom’s room and raid the mini bar. The boys had whiskey and coke, Markesha had vodka and coke and I had Bacardi, and you guessed it, coke. Actually diet coke. Anyway, I forget what was spoken about, but Bill and I were gazing at each other and then we just started to kiss and our hands were roaming all over each other’s bodies as the kiss deepened, until Tom shouted out “get a room you two.”
We pulled away from each other and Bill was deep red. “get a life Tom,” I said, hitting him with a pillow.
Bill broke from his embarrassment and shouted “pillow fight!”
We four continued to date, and it was magical. We had to date in secret though, so it wouldn’t look as though the twins were praising us on the show because we were together. But that just made it more exciting, seeing each other in secret. Bill promised me a special date for the last night of the show when we could tell everyone.
Finally the special night arrived and it was down to Enchanted Devilish Girls and another band called Notebook. Our whole entourage was there, our best friends, Lena, our co-songwriter, Kayleigh, our stylist, Amy, our make up artist and Amanda our choreographer. They were all our old friends, we kept them on because we loved them.
So, the presenter, Marcus, called us out onstage and we waited and waited, and finally he said “the winners are…Enchanted Devilish Girls!”
Well we couldn’t believe it, we turned and hugged one another, Next thing I knew, Bill was there and gathering me up into his arms, screaming out “I’m in love with this girl Nikki!” I was shocked.
“Bill, I cried, you’re embarrassing me!” Bill looked at me for a minute and then we both burst out into laughter.
“I love her!” he shouted again.
“And I love him! I shouted. Then we noticed Markesha and Tom looking at us like we’d lost our minds.
Later that night, Bill pulled me aside and told me he had a special gift for me and I had to come with him. We arrived in a big arena and I still didn’t know what was happening. Next thing I knew, Evanescence came onstage and rocked the place. I couldn’t believe I was finally getting to see them. “I remembered from your first audition you said you loved them”, Bill whispered in my ear.
“Oh my god, I can’t believe you remembered” I whispered back.
That night Bill came back to my room and we raided the mini bar. “I knew you were a winner” he said to me. It was the first night we could really be together, not in secret. We lay in each other’s arms and talked about anything and everything late into the night. The next morning we woke up, still in each other’s arms.
“This is the best way to wake up ever” I told him and he agreed. He had a meeting so he left to get ready and I rang Markesha and told her I had spent the night talking with Bill. She told me that she had spent the night with Tom, only not talking…
Anyway, roll on two months and Bill has broken up with for no reason. I can’t believe it, I’m devastated and heartbroken. My girlfriends have all come over for a slumber party/pampering to cheer me up. In a way it kind of makes me feel worse though, as they all have boyfriends now, Markesha and Tom of course, Lena is with Zac Efron now, Kayleigh is with Ville Valo, Amy is with Gustav, Amanda is with Shane, and our new friend, Kitty who is Georg’s girlfriend is also with them. I know they mean well and I love them, but I can’t get over the aching in my lonely heart, where he should be.
We were just watching Dirty Dancing when She’s Like the Wind came on and I had to lock myself into the bathroom sobbing. I guess he was just “out of my league.” There was a knock on the door so I got myself together and went to answer it. There stood Bill. I looked at him and he looked back. Then he broke into the following speech:
“I’ve loved you since the first time I saw you on the Btk app. I couldn’t pluck up the courage to reply to you. I looked for you every day. When you turned up at the auditions I could barely breathe. When you said you loved me too, I nearly died. When we got together it scared the crap out of me. I’ve always been a hopeless romantic, and you could have destroyed me. I’m a total coward, because I got these tickets to New York for you to see all your favourite shows, but I kept them hidden because I was too scared to tell you. I pushed you away and I hate myself for it, because really, I love you, I love you so much it’s not even funny.”
By this stage we were both in tears and I flung my arms around him and he pulled me tight to him and then we kissed as though our lives depended on it. Next thing we heard cheering and clapping, and turned to find the girls all standing around cheering us on. One or two had tears in their eyes, you know who you are!
Well that is my story of auditioning for DSDS and falling in love with the best most romantic guy in the world. Enchanted Devilish Girls are currently rehearsing to go on tour with Tokio Hotel so I am sure there will be many more stories to tell!
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